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The Only Thing by rockergirl1, literature

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The Only Thing

It's the only thing that stops the pain Give me the needle If you don't I won't make it Give me the injection of what I love It's what I live off of I used to live off of Love But not anymore Love doesn't exist Love Isn't Reality This is Who I am There's a price for life So mine's a little expensive What can I do about it? This is Who I am Stumble to the toilet Puke my guts out This is what I've become Look in the mirror Pale and thin This is Who I am Give me another injection Turn the music up! Party hard Never want to wake up This is Who I am Lovin' the life of Everyday injections of Cocaine Do a little Mary Jane

Temperature by rockergirl1, literature

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Temperature

The hate boils to my brim My temperature is high I'm getting angrier as the clock ticks I don't want to sin But it's what I'm good at I destroy everything with my words Like daggars Scream out loud Take a sharp knife Shove it into the skin I realize since you left I'm not the same I GUESS IT'S FOR THE BEST I scream louder than ever before Push the blade further than anytime before I'll never be the same I wish for this and Bitch for that I'll scream until I collapse Blood drips fast Like a polluted stream I'm what I am I do what I do NO stopping me Give me my knife and daily dose of drugs and I'll be FINE

Girls Rose by rockergirl1, literature

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Girls Rose

She looks like a rose So beautiful When you pick a rose It slowly starts to die Just like a damaged girl As pretty as both may be They're both dieing When she falls down She's so pretty Lips trembling Like the withering pettels of a rose Her tears are like rain drops On the rose that you picked As she falls in slow motion That's you picking the rose from the ground Both start to slowly die Both so Beautiful Kicked around Her mascara starts to smear in her tears Pettels start to fall off the stem of the rose Tattered and Torn Like a rag doll String pulled Like a puppet Both Rose and Girl will be reborn Still beautifull

Walking Dead by rockergirl1, literature

Poison by rockergirl1, literature

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Poison

I can feel myself drowning in this poison Choking on blood Clawing at my face Eyes blood shot Tripping over myself What have I done? What have I become? This monsterous person I was never good enough for this world Inject more poison Drowned some more Can't live without my drugs Out of control Beat myself up Choke a little more It's what I do It's one bad dream Give me my fix of poison One more does of poison PLEASE I beg you don't take my drugs I can't live without They're my happiness Claw my face Pick at my skin Just one more Dose, Please!?!

Did You by rockergirl1, literature

Improvision by rockergirl1, literature

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Improvision

Sitting frozen on the bathroom floor I wish there was someone to love me I used to be a someone who loved another But no longer I am not a someone I an a no one I wish there was a day when I was held But that day never came I wish someone could steal my pain away But they can't It's titled in my name Take my knife to my wrist I wish there was someone to help me I used to help another But no longer I'm soaked in sadness Feel it Steal it away My sadness Push the knife to my skin pull towards myself This life is getting old I wish I wasn't so numb But I am Nothing I can do I want to be someone who Steals someone elses

Never forgiven Never forgotten by rockergirl1, literature

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Never forgiven Never forgotten

Things we do May be forgiven but never forgotten Other things we do May never be forgiven and never forgotten Either way The things that have been done are always there Like it or not You know you've done it and it's always in the back of you mind Never forgotten Never forgiven The truth always hurts No matter what It'll never be the same and I accept the consequences of my unfaithful acts Never forgotten and Never forgiven I lit my pain on fire Watched it go up in flames and I'm the one to blame Never forgotten and Never forgiven Shut me out Never let me in again Vent your pain that I have caused Never forgotten and Ne

Rain by rockergirl1, literature

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Rain

Rain pours down from the heavens above As my tears do the same Shock wore off after listening To the operator for two minutes I threw the phone and screamed at myself The rain pounds on the window Tear drop after tear drop hits my pillow My stupidity My bad Never the same as I scream once more The clouds are dark as they let the rain escape As I am the darkness of my tears I screwed myself over again Just like before Screaming hasn't helped and I know you don't want my explanation which I understand The clouds move in the sky and the rain stops I, however, am still dark Never again to return to myself

My Life by rockergirl1, literature

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My Life

My life is spinning out of control This I know and This I can't help My nightmare is here Reality is what it's called I try to hold on to this marry-go-round But once more I fail to do so I hit the ground Because I can't keep myself from seeking the darkness My life isn't calm anymore This I know and This I can't help My nightmare is here Reality is its name I try to swim to the surface of this storm But once more I fail to do so I get sucked to the bottom of the sea Because I can't keep myself from seeking the darkness My life isn't nice This I know and This I can't help My nightmare is here Reailty is its name I try

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Ever Lasting Pain by rockergirl1, literature

Untitled by rockergirl1, literature

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Untitled

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep at night? Hoping God will hear your prayers that ask for a better life. But the next day you wake up with the same heartbreaking life that you went to bed with. You keep praying though because you still believe he will hear you through the tears and pain. You ask him why he does this to you. And what you did to deserve this kind of treatment.

I used to by rockergirl1, literature

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I used to

I used to cry at night hoping one day everything would turn out to be so right. I'd look into the midnight, blue sky and think of what I could do to make things better. But in resolution to that I am writing this letter. I had that same dream that I'd have a safe and warm shelter. I used to believe in a world so bright thinking you would never leave you would always be in my sight. But now I look to the black of your eyes for answers. Instead you have turned into my own worst cancer. I had that same dream that I'd have a safe and warm shelter. I used to hope one day the world would turn warm. And all of the crying children would

No One Knows by rockergirl1, literature

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I can't by rockergirl1, literature

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I can't

I can't feel anything.. I can't feel you next to me.. I can't feel myself.. I can't feel the pain.. I can't feel the tears.. I can't feel the frustration.. I can't feel the insanity.. I can't feel anything because I've become so numb. Numb to you.. Numb to myself.. Numb to the pain.. Numb to the frustraion.. Numb to the insanity. Now I'm numb to everyone. Now I'm invisible. I know I was invisible before but for those few people who saw who I really was Good-Bye

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Your Existance by Killerkeller, literature

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Your Existance

Hey there the beauty from my nightmare, The light shining in backround of the crypt, The spirit come back from the dead to haunt, Come to me and we can be together if you want. I'll be where you can always see me, I don't want to seem greedy, But your the treasure that I really, really want, More precious then any amount of gems... I really want to see you, To hold you in the dead of the silent night. Were we can be together, gazing at the moon. I swear over everything that I'll come and see you soon. And when the Earth goes tumbling, and out of no where starts to fall apart, Have faith knowing that in all this life's turmoil,

if by LongingToBreath, literature

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if

If all you ever knew. Was all I ever taught you. If all you did was pray. I am sorry things didn't turn out your way. If all you ever knew, was all of me, I am , I am so sorry. If all you ever did, was listen to me, I am so sorry I never meant to, guide the wrong way. I never thought that you, would really go away. If all you ever knew, was all of me, I am , I am so sorry. If all you ever did, was listen to me, I am so sorry

South by Ortheius, literature

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South

When the trees start to shrivel And the fields begin to dry When the farms grow no more And red turns the sky The road leads no where And a fire burns in your eye Life has migrated south I sit and wonder why The stars begin to dim Cool air whispers my ear Your heart freezes over My body rigid with fear Nostrils flaring with decay When you overpower me Gasping for life and air Forever broken I be

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About rockergirl1

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Artist // Literature

United States
Deviant for 19 years
She / Her

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Current Residence: In a box. Outside your window.
Favourite genre of music: Rock
Personal Quote: "If you don't like me for who I am. I guess it sucks to be you!"

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When Darkness Falls, Practical Magic, The Craft, & Taking Lives

Other Interests

Reading, Writing Poetry, Hockey, and listening to Music

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rockergirl1

Jun 2, 2006

Bye

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Well, I most likely won't be on DA very much anymore. I'll probably check it every now and then but I don't have much to do here. But I have a new myspace so if anyone else has one let me know and I'll add you!

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rockergirl1

May 24, 2006

End of skool

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Ok well im doing this in like 3 minutes so im hurrying really fast i just ook my 2nd and 3rd hour exams and i think i did ok and now im going home i get out of skool on friday ive been ALRIGHT! LOVE ALL bye

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rockergirl1

May 5, 2006

Music

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Hey yall. Well, the last day has been exhausting. . .I know tis my fault but I am sorry and I'm only human. Which isn't an excuse but whatever so anyways. I'm tired and I just woke up from like an hour of sleep. I need some new music. So if anyone has any idea of good cds let me know. . .I really need some Rock/Metal. . .something that's depressing. Cuz I'm tired of listening to the same cds over and over again. lol.